June 26, 2017

Massage Therapy Update

 

As you know I’m currently studying a Diploma of Remedial Massage Therapy course which I’ll complete in July 2018. Right now, I’m currently finishing up my last week of semester one. I’m happy to inform you that I’m up to date with all my assignments. So, I have a little time today to reflect over this semester and work out how I can prepare for next semester.

During semester 1, I did the following

  • I turn up to class on time (or a little late), but never early.
  • I left my assignments to the last minute and handed them in late.
  • I stayed up late working on assignments or procrastinating.
  • I didn’t practice or organise enough people to practice on this semester.
  • I didn’t have a clear morning and night time routine.
  • I don’t consistently prepare and bring my lunch to school/work.
  • I don’t have an exercise routine, or meal plan, or cleaning schedule.
  • I don’t consistently fill out my dairy/journal.
  • Oh and my blog, well I rarely upload any blog posts.

Clearly, I need to work on my time management and organisation. At this point in time I simply go with the flow, then freak out when there’s a deadline. I’m sick of just surviving, I want to be thriving. Ultimately, I want to be active, happy and healthy next semester and beyond.

So, starting next week I’ll be enjoying a two week break from school. These holidays, I’ll be organising time with friends and family. Plus I’ll be working out and actioning my daily routines (morning, nightly, exercise routines). I’ll also be scheduling in people to practice my massage skills on.

Then when, semester 2, term 3, begins, I’ll focusing on the following:

  • Arriving to class at least 10 minutes early
  • Bringing in a homemade lunch to school/work daily
  • Plan out my weeks meal plan and prep meals every Sunday & Wednesday
  • Plan out my schedule each and every morning
  • Journal every night.
  • I’ll practise massage either on my own or with a client daily.
  • I’ll be blogging this process weekly, I’ll post every Monday.

I have some exciting dreams that I want to accomplish in the future. So, this year, I’ll be working on getting into shape, eating healthy plant-based meals and become a pro at managing all of my daily activities. These things will help me achieve my goals and are also vital for maintaining my sanity.

So stay tuned for more frequent content.

x A x

May 15, 2017

Embody Massage Clinic Vision

 

Hey, so above is a little logo and vision board for a future dream massage/mini shop clinic. Since, I have started studying my creative spark has reappeared, which is super fun and exciting. I do still consider myself a creative, simply because I still adore beautiful things. And vision-boards are a great way to infuse creativity, dreams and a little self help knowledge I’ve collected over the years. I did go through a phase of being fascinated with all the “self help” books, bloggers, you tubers, for example; Marie Forleo, covers all three of these. Anyways, now that I have started a Diploma of Remedial massage, I have had a bit of fun coming up with a little logo for my future business. My future massage clinic will be called ‘Embody Massage Clinic’. Obviously, I’d offer indulgent relaxation massages and other treatments like facials. But in addition, to the clinic treatments, I’d love to incorporate beautiful, natural and hand made or crafted home wears and beauty products. Oh, and a dash of art, plus maybe be a few… or a lot of plant based and vegan cook books. Yes, I am having fun dreaming. Oh, I must say thank you to Nesha for the above vision board design template.

In the future, I’d love to recreate this vision board using my own clinic’s pictures. To see the ‘before’ vision board  transform into the ‘after’ reality photo board  would be something.

April 5, 2017

Mental Health Story

 

hello, this is a little insight into my mental health from 2015 till now.

I’ve always been a dreamer, In the year of 2015 my life seemed to be going great! I was getting paid for small art projects, jogging consistently, eating healthy (a newbie vegan), I loved catching up with many friends and I had recently fallen in love. My dreams had included running an art business with my twin sister, studying business online and becoming a graphic designer. These dreams and more were proudly displayed upon my vision board that illustrated every detail of my amazing, exciting and beautiful “dream life”. At the time, many of my dreams seemed to be coming true. Especially since 2014 had been an amazing transformative year. However, during 2015 I lost my positive momentum. I started placing unrealistic pressure on myself and slowly all my good habits of 2014 began to fade away. Its only through hindsight that I can look back and see my slow descent into being overly stressed and becoming increasingly depressed.

Eventually, everything fell apart just two weeks before I was meant to be flying out to France (around July, 2015) to meet my boyfriend. Instead of boarding a plane, I had a mental breakdown. The breakdown which the doctors later labelled as a “manic episode” lasted a few days. During that time, I couldn’t eat or sleep, my mind would not stop racing. This resulted in me professing a bunch of craziness to my friends and family. After I said and did a lot of weird stuff (I remember everything even though I was legit mentally ill), My family was forced to call an ambulance and I was taken to hospital. In the emergency room, I freaked out and they induced me to sleep, I ended up waking up in the mental hospital. Fun times…

I won’t go into details about my actions or my thoughts at the time, just know that being mentally unstable is a freaking scary experience. I remained in the mental ward for just two weeks and then was let out. I was still not in my usual sane state of mind and after a short amount of time at home I couldn’t handle it. I was experiencing a level of anxiety that I’d never known before. I still felt “crazy” and I truly didn’t feel safe in my own home. So, I chose to go back into the mental health ward.

After my second stint in the “looney bin”, I moved in with my mum, I was still suffering from weird thoughts but they slowly faded with time. Anyways, I spent the next 6 months getting dosed up on strong medication (Bipolar meds/anti-depressants), I felt empty, broken and worthless. I lost all my faith and self-belief. All my drive, passion, happiness had been wiped away. All I wanted to do was go back in time, and wake up from this nightmare. I gained weight so quickly, I tried to jog but medication left me in a zombie state. I soon gave up on my body and I ballooned.

Six months went by, I isolated myself as much as possible, I had no personality, I was a lifeless zombie and it turns out the doctors had messed up my dosage. I had been taking more than was ideal. Anyways, I finally managed to go back to work for just one day a week. To be honest this was a massive step for me at the time. Since gaining weight I have had many people presume or ask if I was pregnant. Moving on, I was off my medications within a year and I also ended my monthly mental health meetings. A couple of months after this, I felt genuine joy for the first time since my manic episode. I remember laughing for the first time after a whole year of suffering clinical depression. I was so happy that I had trully laughed that I burst into tears.

Mental illness is no joke, to me it seems to be this invisible force that invaded my mind and shattered my life. I didn’t think recovery would take this long but the hard bit is over!! Whoo! Now that I’m feeling really good I’d like to thank all my family, friends and my work mates. I’m so grateful for all your support, so thank you.

This year, 2017, I’m starting to move forward. I cannot go back to how I was before my break down. I have experienced so much, but then again, we’re all going through something. Hopefully, our experiences, both the good and the bad, allow us to grow an develop into an even better people. For now, I’ll happily continue leading my “insane” life!

Thanks for reading, Amber

xAx